God's grace

What do you see? This "angel" was leftover from lunch one day....

God is so good. All the time.

It's easy to get down and think of all the muck in the world and wonder where God is. It's really a glass half empty/ half full thing. You can wonder where God is or you can try and find a place He isn't. Some days it's easy for me to look past the flowers and the trees and the sun in my face and just focus all my energy internally on what is happening to me personally. Last week I really tried to be present with God and not worry about tomorrow.

I realized that for so long now I have been trying to look to a time with less sadness, more sunshine, less financial struggles, more personal freedom, etc. I have been so focused on tomorrow that I am missing today. I am missing my kids lives and my life with my husband. I am missing opportunities to be a good friend to someone and nurture relationships I have. I don't want to miss out on one more thing.

I shared a couple posts ago about the dream I had about my mom playing with my girls. It was more than a good dream for me. It was an example of God's love and grace for me. He sees me struggle, he sees me try and hang on day after day if only by a thread. He knows the desires of my heart- He knows how much my heart hurts for the loss my family has experienced. He knows I am trying to be present with Him although it's hard not to look to tomorrow. God found a way to unite me and my mom and my girls and it is just beautiful.

Some may say, "well if that is something that you wanted and have your mind on, your mom being able to play with your girls, than of course you might dream about it." I agree with that to a certain extent but I choose to recognize it as a God-thing. His timing is perfect. I am so thankful that I deserve less than nothing and yet I have everything I need.

This is one of my very favorite passages from Matthew 6:25-34, about provision:

²⁵ “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? ²⁶ Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? ²⁷ Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life^[a]?
²⁸ “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. ²⁹ Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. ³⁰ If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? ³¹ So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ ³² For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. ³³ But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. ³⁴ Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

God wants for His people to live for today and not worry about tomorrow. He will take care of all of our needs- physical, emotional and spiritual.

Thank you God for sharing with me a glimpse of my mother, whom I miss so much! Thank you for letting me and my girls be near to her again!

Amen!