Feeling like Mother of the Year

What a day!

I am wiped out and my day isn't over. As I write this, my darling Leila is jumping around on my lap. Just wondering when I might catch a break...

Today was not only Monday but also a day where I watched another little girl aside from my own two ladies. Leila started yesterday with some really runny eyes. Runny eyes? Google didn't have much to say about that, maybe allergies. This morning it continued and because the other girls (my daughter Sofia is 2 1/2 and Julia is 3) don't quite understand how to "keep it down" or "use inside voices" Leila couldn't really settle to sleep. Ug. Sofia plays pretty well most days but today it was all "mine" and "no" and even hitting. Yuck- hitting. I put her in time-out for 2 minutes 3 different times today. A lot of good that did. Eventually Leila fell asleep and slept for 2 hours, which was awesome, but the other girls didn't want anything to do with nap time.

THANKS A LOT DAYLIGHT SAVINGS TIME!!!!!

By the time my dearest husband came home I was ready to start smoking or go for a drink. He even had to put Sofia in time-out once for doing something she was told not to do several times. When I went to retrieve her from her 2 minutes of torture I said, "Sofia, do you know why mommy and daddy put you in time-out?" She said she did. While I was reiterating that it was because she was not listening to us, she picked up her fairy wand, tapped it on my head and said "mommy, you're a turd." I almost wanted to laugh. It has been one of those kind of days.

I love my girls so much. I feel bad for even complaining about motherhood because I know people that would give anything to have children of their own. The truth is, this has been the hardest 8 months of my life- with Leila as needy as she is and mom dying. It's about all I can take. I'd love to be Mother of the Year but most days I couldn't be farther from it.